天國の書屋^^Kyo

依吹最后还是死了,无论她的笑容多么灿烂.所谓心灵的力量,只是脑海里描绘的虚幻罢了.

人,到底为什么活着?无聊的话题引起过我敏感的神经,可终究想不出个答案.世界充满着谎言,蚕食着大众的意识.

想要吸收更多的营养,

想晒更多的太阳,

想吸更新鲜的空气,

想得到别人更多的恩惠,

自己却从不付出.

最后只有躲在漆黑的屋子里,

看着呼出的烟圈消失不见.

 

花屋さん的包容我始终还是不懂.

对待欺骗自己的美樱他可以义无返顾的爱着.

爱到底是个什么东西,

当你拥有时,开心的像个孩子,

当你失去时,痛苦的欲生欲死.

羡慕那些可以不顾一切说出心中所想的人,世界永远那么单纯.

不知不觉中,

原来我已经没有那么自我,原来我也已变得污秽.

 

 

Manager

 

People always review their performance in the end of year. Something different for me this year is that besides doing my own appraisal, I gotta do appraisals to my subordinates. I am lucky enough to be promoted to executive in Oct, less than 2 years since I joined the bank, nearly at the same time as our trainees. Actually I have been promoted twice this year. As I got more money in my pocket, I got more pressure in my head. I can be a professional bank, as individual, Pam said, I am a sales & service model. That’s rite, I am only a sales & service model at this stage. I am not a qualified manager. Aah, to be specific, an executive. I may won the Distinguished Sales Award held by HK Marketing Association in HK, I may host the branch opening ceremony and I may organized various activity for business acquisition, I don’t know how 2 coach a staff who is not supposed to be a banker. That’s quite a headache to me.

 

It is saying that people always got challenged before they become a giant. When I developed the training plan 4 those new comers, I gave them 3 months to adapt to the guidelines & procedures. But unfortunately, few bosses would be generous enough to leave me 3 months to train up the staff. Thank god, at least they haven’t induced any complaints.

 

Private Bank

 

One of our sub branch managers just quitted n joined the Deutsch Bank as head of investment onshore China. It has been a dream of me to work in a PB. I received several interview appointments for investment manager, sales manager and even sub branch manager. But they don’t know me. I would rather be a No.9 instead of No.10 in a football game. CITI offers me an opportunity, they will set up a PB office in Guangzhou, but before that I will be relocated to shanghai, a city I have lived for 5 yrs. To be frank, it’s very attractive. I know I will have the chance, but probably not at the time being. I gotta solid my management before entering a new challenge. Quite confusing, but thank god again, lulu will be back to Guangzhou soon.

他，一个人在黑暗中前行，手里拿着酒瓶，穿过窄窄的小巷，突然垃圾桶里跳出一只黑猫，出了一身冷汗，酒意全醒了.他并不会喝酒，不过此时，酒和水，其实并没有太多分别.

 

穿过了小巷，一群年轻的孩子们在破旧的墙上涂鸦.这么夜了，小孩子也不用睡觉的.年代变了. 冬天的末梢，城市已经很燥热，同样，人们的心.回到熟悉的马路，车辆穿梭着，往不同的角落疾弛而去.树上不经意的掉落几片叶子，葱葱绿绿的，可惜.弯腰拾起来，突然发觉世界陌生了，经常走的路，陌生了.他一个人.

难得一个庸懒的周末下午,听着feist的let it die,悄悄的睡去.

醒来时,已是傍晚.

 

轻柔的歌声依然徘徊,脑中闪过那些人,那些事,一阵麻痹,

然后

随着烟雾飘散,

又流过眼前.

 

EpiSode 1

 

 

衡山路的法国梧桐,或许还没有掉落吧?

听说Zoe已经辞职了,又开始了另一段漂泊,带着她那Catier的男装表,永远不肯打扮的像个正常的女生.

我们一起布置的小房子,不晓得是否依旧.

i know, i just know.

Fily一定在和某个人微笑着,在欧洲房子里.手指的刺青慢慢褪色.小桌子上那50几瓶,依然有我熟悉的味道.

 

傻鸡说,他要去拆散那对男女,那个勾引过他的女人.

曾经酷毙了的傻鸡,曾经让我低头仰望的傻鸡,

渐渐地双脚着地,慢慢地深陷.

他并不喜欢她.

只是空虚的心灵盲目地寻找一个欲望的出口.

现世扭曲的跌序,WHeRe was I? wHeRe wEre u?

ShAlL neVer wiN...

 

过去不让我怀念.怀念只是让人软弱的借口.

CompoSers望着夜空掉泪的星星,写出一幕幕感人的乐章.Toshi静静的WalKing In the RAin,等待到的只是Hide' Crusify My Lov的宣言.

可笑的人儿,清醒吧.

 

 

EpiSode 2

 

 

Ivan最近不太顺利吧.

2年前我们在衡山路的上海情调喝着chivas,描述着接下来5年的发展宏图.

一半时间过去了,宏图成了泡影.

在JacK MaGic Pea,看见他日渐稀少的头发,心里真有几分惆怅.

 

Coco还独自在上海.

不,有伴了.不过我还是不明白,一个大男人为何起了个这个娘的名字.就因为他叫郭可?

起码他是幸福的.

追求着自己喜欢的事业,游戏策划.或许过个几年,孩子们玩的都是他的游戏,简直酷毙了!

 

吉列,肥sheep刚从英国归来,一个想找投行,不做老爸的地产生意,一个想什么我也不知道,不过也不要继续老爸的石油.

老掉牙的英式摇滚原来还是有那么点刺激他们的中枢神经,血液倒流上脑.

看看傻鸡,只要有钱,他什么都做.

变了,世界变了.

 

End

 

那年海边,喝着mini的AsoLut VodCa,我们说50岁时要到西藏去爬Himalayas.

如今时间已过一半,却连自己脚下的路,仍未看清.

流金岁月.

和lulu吃饭时提起过一样叫理想的东西.

曾经晓得何谓理想,可是他悄悄溜走了,

当我回过头,

What makes winters lonely
Now at last I know

 

 

Guangzhou is funny. Funny shrinks like an actor walk alone.

 

Life is tough. Lonely fill up my heart. Where's my lover?

 

I need a lover, maybe